Us Ohioans have this joke about the weather here. We find it to be incredibly unpredictable and most inconvenient. I dunno what it is about this area of the midwest, but it doesn't compare to any other place in the U.S. Northerners might complain of the cold and snow, but at least they know it's coming. And I can't imagine the southern states having much to complain about with their mild winters. But Ohio...it blizzards in April, and can be 60 degrees in November.
Today happens to be the epitome of Ohio weather. We have literally experienced weather from every season. Today began as windy, yet slightly warm. Around 9:00am the sun was shining and the wind died down. By 10:00 the wind began again, and by 11:00, the sky was gray and dark. Five minutes later and it began to rain. Come noon the rain had ceased and the wind picked up again. Around 2:00pm inclement weather resembling something like a blizzard sweeps in on the high winds. Visibility is very low and the world outside is all white. Within the span of 10 minutes, the snow stops, the clouds evanesce and the sun comes out, shining intensely as if it's spring once again.
And this is why we joke that it will snow in June...on your wedding day...when you least expect it, and when it's most discommoding...
All my love
Riane
A new day will rise, the sun is gonna shine on you and me, the best is yet to come...
I renewed my subscription with my upsaid account and I can now start writing again. I've suddenly had this flow of intellectual thought. I started thinking in compositions recently, and I figured...why not actually compose. It's funny. It's been like months since I last wrote...it feels like years. I don't even look like my profile picture anymore. Perhaps maybe I'm skinnier now. Perhaps it's cos I'm in college that I am skinnier. Actually there were studies done that stated that college students gain an average of 15 pounds in their first year. I find that hard to believe - maybe it's not the case now because we're all so poor and are living off ramen noodles. I don't know.
I'm going to revamp this blog, just like I've revamped my life...
All my love Riane
And as I'm about to write my lyrics I start to wonder if I've ever repeated lyrics in any of my entries in the past?
It don't matter, I won't do what you say, you've got the money and the power, I won't go your way, I can't take from the people, they don't matter at all, I'll be waiting in the shadows till the day that you fall...
Ok, Dammit. I'll write. I've pratically lived an entire year of my live away from here. I even missed out on my annual New Year's Eve entry in which I reflect on a year of my life before I begin a new one. I don't have any excuses. I'm not dead. Or sick with pig flu. I just haven't been here. When I said, turn off the time wasters I pretty much left. I turned it off and haven't been here since last October. That means I have to catch you up with my life and the most efficient way to do so is to create a time line...
October 2008: Visted Ithaca, New York for the first time in my life. I absolutely love it there. I didn't visit the city, because I was there to visit Ithaca College, where I almost went to school. Unfortunately I cannot go, because I cannot afford to right now.
November 2008: A guy at work asked me on a date and I said I don't know. One day I met him at the library and found out he was 28. Then he creeped me out by asking me to come over to his apartment that he had "just steam cleaned for me" and play with his lego cars. I told him to never speak to me again because he started to get too creepy.
December 2008: Had a lovely Christmas minus that at my dad's house where I sat in silence. I went to two of my friends' birthday party, and ended up asking my friend Megan to ask my crush if he liked me or not because after 6 months of hanging out I was tired of waiting. He said yes. That night he called me and told me he was an idiot and too afraid to tell me he did. Later that week we started dating at my New Year's Eve Party where...oh my god I can't believe it, but I sang karaoke to Duran Duran's Hungry Like the Wolf. We had mocktails. I got a New Year's kiss.
Party, I am on the red couch.
Yeah...me singing.
January 2009: I applied to College.
February 2009: I was accepted to College.
March 2009: I spent spring break at home.
April 2009: I accepted admission at Ohio Wesleyan University in my town. Let me explain. I am paying for college by myself without my parents. I received a $21,000 annual scholarship to go there for 4 years. It has everything I want except the location factor. So, that is where I am going, and I plan to study abroad in some other country. I am going to major in English. That's about it. Also, I am still dating my crush.
In the midst of this I hit a record number of shows including: Ism, Death Cab for Cutie, Metallica, Duran Duran, Morrissey and recently CD101 Day where The Clicks, Karate Coyote, People in Planes, Audrye Sessions and Parlor Mob played. That's like a Concert for every month. And I can say that I've seen 3 of my 5 favorite bands of all time live in concert, those being Metallica, Morrissey (the Smiths) and NIN. I have yet to see Macca or Depeche Mode. But...Depeche just came out with a new album and should go on tour again!
As for songs, I recommend Bixby Canyon Bridge and Grapevine Fires by Death Cab, which I have been addicted to, and Munich by The Editors and Magick by Ryan Adams and the Cardinals. Also, please check out The Clicks, an all girl band whose singer could totally pass as a gay gay, but has the lungs of I don't know what, but she has good pipes. Then check out Karate Coyote and People in Planes. Both superb.
And so there is the life and times of Riane...
All my love,
Riane
I descended a dusty gravel ridge, beneath the Bixby Canyon Bridge, until I eventually arrived at the place where your soul had died, barefoot in the shallow creek, I grabbed some stones from underneath, and waited for you to speak to me...
Why does time have to rule our lives so much? There are not enough hours in the day to get everything we need to do done, despite the fact that we live in a fast paced world where everything moves faster and faster. If you're not fast enough you get left in the dust. Lately I have been so frustrated with time as each day comes and goes and I am still in one place. It's an unfair concept. I can't help but wonder what life was like before clocks, watches and timers constantly rushing us around, waking us up and telling us what time to go to bed. Speaking of waking up and going to bed, my days have begun to bleed into each other. I have no regular sleep pattern and I often wish my body didn't need to slow down and recoup. While it passes out, the rest of me keeps going...my life continues in my head as I sleep, in which I'm still studying for homework, thinking about college and reflecting over conversations and experiences. Once while studying in my room I fell asleep and while I was sleeping I was actually dreaming I was still figuring problems and reviewing material while laying there, and I thought to myself that this was a much more efficient way of studying until I woke up and realized that it was jibberish and I retained nothing. Sleep is for losers anyway.
The structure of time is unfair to me. I cannot do everything I want to do because there is not enough of it, and while I am doing what I want it fritters away faster than I want it to. Even when I'm doing something I don't want to do, it fritters away too fast for me to finish whatever it is I'm doing. But without this structure of time we would live in utter chaos in which deadlines would not exist, or bedtime or morning or anything. We would just be all about all at once, never getting anything at all done, because without this structure only procrastination would exist, believing that whatever it is can always be done later. The even bigger problem with that is the fact that life is so short that before you know it you may never do what you meant to get done before. We would lead empty lives and achieve nothing. Oh wait, some of us already do.
I never understand those people who have so much time on their hands. There is always something to do. My response to the question, "what are we left doing after we've done all those things that no longer take much time to do?" is that we find something else to do. You make it sound as if we are left with so much time on our hands after this wave of technology, but we are not...time is speeding up as well, it seems. If you are so lucky to have such precious time after doing those things that "no longer matter or take up time and energy" then you should use those moments to do something new, or old, but something worth doing and something enjoyable. Turn off your tv, that viscious time waster...turn off all the time wasters including video games and computers. With this fast paced technology where everything gets done faster also comes more ways to waste all the spare time you have. Instead of accomplishing nothing sitting in front of multifarious kinds of luminescent screens, go make a different in your own life, if not others'. Go experience something worth experiencing...
All my love Riane
I had a dream, that I could save the world, all I had to do was everything, I had a purpose, my heart was in my throat, I was put here for a reason, I felt so clear, we had no time, it was the end of the world, I never felt so alive...
This is a year of firsts. Birthdays...there have been a few that have come and gone already. Mine included. For the past 5 years or so I have never missed a birthday entry. And it wasn't until I had the biggest deal birthday that I just had to miss it. Another first is my failure at giving birthday wishes. This year was also the first time in my 14 years of school that I actually had to go to school on my birthday - this was such a major disappointment. But I made the best of it and besides, I had an entire week dedicated to my 18th birthday celebration! At first I wanted to have a huge party, but then I realized that when I actually go to large parties, I prefer to be off in the corner entertaining my friends rather than being the center of attention of the whole thing. So, I scratched that idea. Instead I invited three of my most entertaining friends and we got all dolled up in our cutest dresses and went out to dinner. The evening was quite interesting as we were hit on one of the waitors and later a drunk guy in the parking lot of the coffee shop we went to afterwards. To make it even better, the drunk was on crutches!
The next event on my list was to have a birthday dinner with my family at Nova. A place with amazing pasta and they even had live music on the night of my birthday, August 21st. We had cake from the bakery I work at - yummy fresh strawberries with white cake and whipped icing. The Saturday following my 18th, my friend Lindsay and I got $5 tickets to the CD101 Summerfest Concert. This was by far my most favorite birthday event. The bands that played were, Darker My Love, The Lost Revival, Tickle Me Pink, ism, HoneyHoney, Dr. Dog and VHS or Beta. The last two were the main entertainment while the rest were opening bands. However, my favorite band of the night ended up being ism. I even bought their cd and met the lead singer, Andre. The band totally amazed me. There was a downside though - while I was watching them an overweight drunk pounced on me and started yelling something that I couldn't hear. Apparently he was trying to ask me what band was playing. That's when the guy next to him told him to "fuck off" and then proceeded to chat me up. He introduced himself, but I couldn't hear him over the music so it sounded like "menuhmenuh". He was drunk too and kept saying hi everytime he saw me throughout the night. I also met HoneyHoney, which is a semi-folk, alternative band that consists of Suzanne Santo & Ben Jaffe. They autographed my ticket and Ben told me I had beautiful eyes. I'm a sucker, what can I say. Please check both bands out - I think you will like them.
Speaking of panic attacks, this is my senior year of high school. The last year. I had the last first day of school ever. It's been so rough though. I have been stressed like mad - not because of the workload or anything, but because of what this year means. College. Things that are slowly killing me: college visits, college applications, college financial aid, college entrance exams, maintaining my grade point average and surviving Professional Art, Advanced Placement Language and Composition, Advanced Placement American Government, Advanced Placement Calculus, Physics II, Advanced Photography and French V. Ridiculous. Not only this, but I now have a new job. I was hired to work at the brand new Kohl's Department Store in my city. I'm already starting training and I continue to work at the bakery. So, Riane will hopefully have money to pay for future blogs. And that car insurance. On top of all this I am trying to maintain a pretty healthy social life. EYG meetings have begun again and I have already made new intelligent friends.
I've only been in school for 2 weeks and I've already had to come home from school early due to stress related sickness. The first time was a migraine. I left during lunch and took medicine and slept for an hour. I felt better so I went back to school, but when I came home I felt ill again. This is just too much on my body. Plus, this first time my have been connected to my blood sugar, because I didn't eat breakfast and felt as if I would pass out. Today, yes today, was my second panic attack. I was so stressed out at school and the more stressed I got the worse my migraine got. I was in the photography, my second to last period when I decide I'm going to puke. So, as my teacher is walking me to the restroom and I keep saying, "I don't know what's wrong with me!" over and over, really just to keep the vomit down...but then it comes and in the midst of puking on the floor I hear my photography teacher answer me and say, "Maybe you're pregnant". This could be the most humiliating and funniest thing that's ever happened. I think it's the former, but it's pretty funny. And I can add it to my list of firsts: first time I EVER puked at school. Right on. Most amazing way to start off ones senior year. Maybe this will make you laugh? Or just gross you out.
By the way, it's virtually impossible that I'm pregnant...no worries there...
All my love Riane
Don't always know what I'm talkin' about, feels like I'm livin' in the middle of doubt, 'cause I'm eighteen I get confused every day, eighteen I just don't know what to say, eighteen I gotta get away...
Riane. ohio girl. Leo. original brunette. dyed hair. blue eyed, maybe green. nerdy. writer. pervy. artistic. real. starbucks lover. peace. silly. moody. avid reader. opinionated. vegetarian. ice cream. piercings. photography. sarcastic. retro obsessed. music. Beatle obsessed. peach tea. vinyl. Tibet. red. B&W. <3 mango smoothies. introverted. cats. little dogs. Perfectionist. Possibly OCD. 
