| Friday January 27 2012 |
| Feel so gooooooood ...
... after the dentist removed my ossification spikes by filing them down to "ground level" yesterday morning - it was quite a nasty experience though, I was so shaky through the operation and afterwards. I went directly to a grocery store and pharmacy from the dentis's, fighting through piles of snow. My goal: my home; my nice and promising couch. Six hours afterwards I sat by my computer, was actually about to pay the dentist's bill, when everything started spinning around, my computer screen seemed to be watery waves running by and the windows were moving too. When this happened I was simultaneously on the phone, talking to my youngest daughter and felt like I might faint, but I'm stubborn, ended the conversation and made the payment before stumbling to my couch. I'm lucky enough to be living in the smallest apartment, so I got right to the couch and lay down for a while. At the pharmacy I had bought light pain killers, I haven't bought a box of those for over three years, luckily never need them. Popped two pills soon after I came home yesterday, over 36 hours ago - haven't needed any since then. Slept well, the swollenness almost gone, the stitches don't annoy me in any way. And I'm back to normal, if normal can be - at least no unneeded bones intruding my flesh. A working weekend ahead - mostly work, no partying this weekend - but that's OK - did all the partying a week ago! Have been on my feet all day - to work - at work - walking in puddles of melting snow, need to use my walking boots tomorrow morning, my travelling boots (Timberland) are soaking, as my toes. wrote Hugskot at 23 : 05 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Wednesday January 25 2012 |
| not my day today ...
... really not my day! Started by calling the dentist, realizing I can't delay it anymore. I've known about the ossification from my maxilla for years, the growing hump under my cheekbone. But I didn't react, it has not been a real problem until lately when I started to feel tension in my chin. As a massage therapist I have been working on my chin, but then a couple of days ago the bone thrusted itself through the skin, so now nasty spikes keep working on cutting my cheek from inside. I got lucky though, have a dentist's appointment tomorrow morning, a great dentist too - a master at his profession! Went out on errends into a Reykjavik wonderland, it has been snowing for days and the whole city is white and glimmering. Got a bus after making the errends, but didn't have time to go home so I just spent my time writing in my diary and chilling, because next in my scedule was a staff meeting at my job. I took another bus there, walking up to my thighs in snow finding out that the staff meeting had been delayed and I was the only one who didn't get the message. Shit ... now I was really upset! Shit shit shit !!! Could have made better use of my time ... I don't like it when other people misuse my time, it's much better when I waste it myself! Ran back to the main bus road, seeing the back of my bus. Shit again!!! Decided to run for another bus a little further away, when a second bus ran by three minuts later ... the first one had been 15 min. late, the second only 3 min. late. My o my ... not my day! Got the other bus though, by crossing a fork in an illegal way, again up to my thighs in snow! This bus takes much wider route and takes quite a while, so I got some time of relaxation, but not for long. It turned out to be 20 min. late and the bus driver was so stressed out that he shouted at people: "hurry up ... hurry hurry - I'm 20 min. late". He drove in high speed and passed some waiting passengers - totally consumed by his own stress. And at one of the roundabouts, he lost control and steard right into a large pile of snow and got stuck. He was still waiting for rescue, when I got out of the bus, had by then relized my luck in the terribly disaponting day; the bus beeing stuck close to a beautiful Reykjavik park - Hljómskálagarður. I calmed myself down ... and decided to enjoy the walk back home, in the beautiful bright and white nature! The path through the park had been cleaned of snow, the weather calm, the trees beautiful, every branch covered with snow in a technicolor way. My walk was so nice. I'm tired now - had my workout, my worries, my disapointments, my anger, my pain, my beauty, my thrill ... all kinds of emotions. I'm alive - and tomorrow I will get rid of my maxilla spikes ... wrote Hugskot at 18 : 53 | comment {1} feel free to send this ... |
| Monday January 23 2012 |
| I don't know why I'm still sitting here at my computer.
Just came home from work and should have hit the sack right away, because I woke up wide awake last night after only two hours sleep, just lay there, waiting for the morning hours. I have been on the run all day after a great and wonderful partying weekend meeting lots of friends and enjoying life ... so it has not been too peaceful, but lots of fun, laughter, fiests and conserts. Actually I did take at least two power naps on the bus today travelling from here to there ... Since January second, my life has been like a whirlwind, and I'm ready to be blown wherever it will take me ... but I guess I will try to sleep a little tonight and prepair for the days to come ... the adventurous 2012 definately is here! wrote Hugskot at 23 : 53 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Wednesday January 18 2012 |
| I'm going to tell my favorite story of today ...
... I was invited to the opening of a new Sushi restaurant in Central Reykjavik (by the way Gilli - if you make it here, I will take you there). I was on my own but met some people I haven't seen for years, and some of the O'Sushi staff, who have become friendly over the last couple of years - since I became a sushi addict. I must be one of the most regular customers. In there I met this guy I haven't seen since before my divorce, must be seven or eight years! He is a well known figure in the KR environment (Reykjavik Fotball Club), called "Kiddi the Foreman"! He laid hands on my shoulders, looked me in the eyes and said: "well well well ... aren't we all getting older?" "Wow" I thought ... "am I looking that old? I really must look like a mess!" But I was brave and answered something about everyone getting older ... that's how the story goes... bla bla bla Then he looked me straight in the eyes and said: "What are you doing now? Are you still in College? Or gone to University?" "Wow" I thought again, "is he really going to rub it in?" ... and I answered sarcastically: "Well I'm out of College - that's for sure" ... then I hesitated, didn't really know how to react to these strange and severly unpolite questions. He probably sensed my hesitation, still with his hands on my shoulders, eye contact never broken ... so he said (like he sensed he had insulted me): "Well how time flies, aren't you at University now?" And then I realized what was going on. He took me for one of my daughters. So I guess I stretced my spine and neck before saying: "I think you are mistaking me for one of my daughers, I'm the mother of Steinunn Björt, Heiðrún Arna and Árdís Björg". He looked at me astonished, couldn't hide his shock and said: "well well well, and how are you doing?" I told him a bit about my profession and he asked me how old I were. I told him and he said at the end of our conversation: "I'm sorry I really mistook you for one of your daughers". "That's OK" I said: that's one of the greatest compliments I've ever got!" Then he turned around and spoke to the person standing next to him and I could hear him telling the joke regarding his mistake! Made my day - today! wrote Hugskot at 19 : 19 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Thought about writing ...
... now; in the late hours. To be more accurate, in the early hours of the coming day! I'm sitting here awake in my tiny livingroom, by my laptop, at my dining table, which is also my kitcen table ... actually it belongs to my little sister - I borrowed it from her - but that's another story. The fact is that I'm not so materialistic any more ;) ... love to earn enough for my basic needs, and a little more to travel (especially to meetings with my daughers abroad) ... need no car - need not so much - I like my simple life! There is enough space for 8 people dining together at my sister's table (in my simple home), that's if they don't insist on better seats for coffe time and desert - there is actually no sofa space - and not often any desert either! I was dwelling on some of the miserable quotes and statuses on today's Facebook - Iceland is up to the neck in shit these days ... but I didn't want to dwell on that for long ... so I just say Pass ... Got some great e-mails and messages in the past days, love my internet friends close and afar ... especially afar as it is. Take care! wrote Hugskot at 2 : 01 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Sunday January 15 2012 |
| A cup of cocoa was invited to me ...
... when I was on my way home last night! The cup of cocoa was followed by a preaching. A guy asked me if I was religious, and I told him "yes I believe in the Almighty, as it shows itself to me; I'm speaking about the Universal Energy!" He got so skeptic and critical that his face distorted. Then he asked what name I would give my Almighty - why I wouldn't call it God! What I would call it? I answered that the Energy I feel around me, and within me does not command a certain name! I told him that it has various names in various cultural places around the world, because people have been giving it a name, trying to discribe a feeling, but to me, the name is not an issue! I told him that in the name of religion, nations and groups of people have been fighting forever and ever and still are. Greedy people have been using it as a camuflage for greed and power, causing wars and terror around the world, making it a hateful place. It is so wrong, when one's religion is put against another's religion, when it is all about power and greed beeing camuflaged as religion. I told him I didn't want anything to do with that kind of abuse! He told me I was wrong! And of course he wanted to push his opinon on me, but I didn't ask him about the name of his god. Just told him that he had a choice to be narrow minded, but my choice was free too, I would follow my inner voice, my truth and he wouldn't be able to change that. The guy was very persistent and pushed me by words, and also physically by following my footsteps ... I didn't want to argue with him, did not find the urge to preach or defend or protect my views. I just have them - and enjoy living in a country where I am free to feel as I do! I told him I was a grown up, and that I had thought a great deal about religion and spirituality and knew exactly where I wanted to stand with my views. I repeated "I am a grown up!" He said: "but aren't we all children? the children of God?" I waved goodbye, thanking for the cup of cocoa, telling him that it was true in a way, that we are all children, but as a child, I would like to develope according to my own truth into the grown up I wanted to be. After I came home, I thought about all the names I have been given, having the difficult Icelandic name: Þorgerður. Since I was a child I have had to respond to so many pronounciations of my name, and quite faulty ones too, because humans have difficulties with many aspects of each other's culture in so many ways! I'm sure the Almighty - the Universal Energy has more problems than me with names, but still I have heard quite a few, from friends, family, foreigners, forgerful people and mentally disabled ... ... I most often respond to the names people call me, though I might put them right and ask them to give it another try - because I am not Almighty ... though the Almighty has an energy thread in me! To give you a few examples of my name's pronounciations: Forgerfur, Forgestur, Forgertful, Horgerfur, Horgertur, Torgertur, Guðlaug, Hyggeli, Þorbjörg, Systa, Togga, Tobba . I'm sure the Universal Energy has heard more versions of it's name through loud prayer and/or silent calls - and still responds! It is all about energy! wrote Hugskot at 19 : 22 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Tuesday January 10 2012 |
| I was working on the puzzle of my life ....
... on the treatment table today. The therapist is a master in holistic treatment, who has taught me a lot and made my evolution easier. He is a master in seeing the "big picture" ... pointing out flaws and directions. I have actually been a little puzzled lately, at this brand new start of adventurous 2012. Taking a new "old" job and making lots of changes, has pushed me to a new way of thinking about things and prepairing for my unforseen "adventurous" future. But thinking about it; everyone's future is uncertain, we never know what's coming. I have in the past years been welcoming many sudden changes in my life ... starting to think about my purpose. What do I want to make of my life? What am I here for? Recently that made me think about my visions, my mental pictures and dream-stories, so I started writing a few short stories, they are evolving just as I am moving on. I do not know where this is taking me, I just like to put myself in the steps of various different people, with different lives, different points of views, different experiences, different life courses ... but having in mind that the human emotions are universal! We all share our emotions, but we act differently upon them, and everyone has to face his/her own challenges of life on this earth ... it's how we react and how we learn that makes us who we become. We come to life with our personality and that personality never leaves us ... but we can loose touch with it, and sometimes we forget who we are, and that's a hard place to be, not knowing oneself one bit! But emotions ... they are all human ... lets talk about them, lets face them! Everybody knows them from their own within! ... lets dive into the duck soup and take a sip! 
wrote Hugskot at 20 : 55 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Monday January 09 2012 |
| an ordinary day
... melting into a new one circle by circle - second by second - hour by hour - day by day  wrote Hugskot at 23 : 52 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Sunday January 08 2012 |
| Yesterday, on a rainy day, when I was on my way home ...
... in the middle of the day - in full daylight, I went down Bankastræti, where my favorite Café is situated. When I took a look from there towards Harpa - the New Musical Hall by the harbour I took notice of how Gray everything looked. The sky was Gray, the beautiful Musical Hall was grayish and the treebranches were black against the Gray sky, no berries there no more. The art in the forground looked so Gray too ... That made me think about the up's and down's in life, and how quickly things can change, and that by going through changes you always have the choice to hold either a positive or a negative view to the future ... sometimes it is so hard to remember the bright sides of life. Thinking that way I couldn't resist the memory of a wonderful picture from November 14th. I looked it up afterwards and now I have posted it to my Flickr site I cherish this moment and am so grateful for the catch: 
wrote Hugskot at 15 : 39 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| The short story I wrote yesterday ...
... will become the first in a trilogy! It just commanded a follow up! The following two stories are more or less pictures in my mind, - I aim at putting them in words on paper ... very soon :) (actually to tell the truth I have already started). Love my life! wrote Hugskot at 14 : 34 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Saturday January 07 2012 |
| Went to sleep late ...
... after speaking about how easily I sleep until late morning, and surely intended to do exactly that. Woke up early, around 6 a'clock and couldn't just lie there, wide awake, so I showered and ate early breakfast before taking my computer to my favorite Café; Kaffitár down town. Have already written one more short story - that takes the third one this year. Quite a good start ... Found out that my storage in the skies through Trend Micro software is fully used - It seems I have uploaded 143 gigabites to my 100 Gb storage - Well done? isn't it? Now I must figure out how to store my pictures, and make space for new stuff in the storage cloud! I must "enlighten" my computer too, it only has 20% storage space left ... and it is getting quite slow! Modern problems ... luxuary problems ... but I've got some great stuff ;) 
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| Thursday January 05 2012 |
| part of my blues the other day ...
... was doubt of my decision. Going back to a working place I had for two years before leaving it exactly two years ago and now going back. It's this thing about going backwards that frightens me - it shouldn't. Some times you just get second chances, making things better :) I was a bit worried I had made a wrong turn. But I have been doing a lot of thinking and quite surely the doubt washed away - I am going to gain some, going to strengthen some of my characteristics. I will work on my temper, my patience, my compassion - I will challence myself, working on my weeknesses, making them my strength! I just came home from my first day at the new job. I feel really good about it now ... and since I will be working odd hours, I'm going to use my leisure time more sensibly. And I will use the healing energy in every way possible, not only at the massage table - it is a powerful energy and I will work on transfering it where ever I go! I will treasure my time - read more, study more ... enjoy what ever - where ever life takes me. Yesterday I started writing a new short story - I finished it last night - it was almost 3500 words, so it is not a tiny short story. And today I wrote another shorter one - a more poetic one - they are so different, and I love the diversity. The diversity of life makes it interesting ... ... not always sun - not always shadow - something inbetween: 
wrote Hugskot at 23 : 27 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Wednesday January 04 2012 |
| Last night ...
... I guess I was fighting a light blues. I have been hitting some hindrances recently, not exactly everything going my way. But I didn't realize how I felt before I called one of my best friends. While talking to her I could hear the ecco of my blues. I had a twenty minuts meditation afterwards, making me feel better. Fell asleep soon after that and woke up 3 a'clock to the end of a marvellous "happy end" dream, I felt so good - lying there smiling and happy, in the middle of the night. I was too lazy to go and write down my dream (I tend to do that when the story is as clear as the one from last night ... otherways my dreams more or less fade away). I just crossed my fingers - hoping to remember the details of my dream, and fell asleep again. I had a nice day, giving holistic treatments before meeting my sister downtown. She encouraged me to give my creative spirit more time, to use the leisure moments better - some day I would harvest ... ... I would really like to harvest! (have been getting compliments on the "travel-story-picture-and-adventure-book" I made as Christmas present for my girls and closest of kin - I love compliments by the way ;) ) Then I remembered my dream - not the details, but enough to start writing a new short story - I'm in the middle of it now ... so my blues are gone. And my girls are coming home for dinner - our last meeting before their flight back to Copenhagen. Before tomorrow's dusk of dawn they will be gone ... 2012 will be my year ... no matter what! wrote Hugskot at 17 : 59 | comment {0} feel free to send this ... |
| Tuesday January 03 2012 |
| On the first day of the year ...
... I had a great time with good friends On the second day I made a call to another friend, just to say "Happy New Year". By the time I hung up the phone I had a new job ... starting next Thursday. It is a part time job, giving me a chance to take chances - and make changes, learning more, working on my personality and flaws, making me stronger ... I'm anticipating a wonderful year: 
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| Sunday January 01 2012 |
| grabbed the camera on my way out to my sister's home ...
... had a great evening with her family and friends. Stood on the hill "Skólavörðuholt" - Skolavorduholt by the Church - Hallgrimskirkja when the clocks announced the year shift ... 2012 is here. 
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| Hugskot's guestbook I often think that the night is more alive and more richly colored than the day. -- Vincent Van Gogh My poetry (in Icelandic): 
Uppsveifla/Niðursveifla. Author: Þorgerður Mattía. Editor: Nykur. ISBN: 978-9979-9850-2-0. 
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