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after a long absence it's been a while, but i just haven't been able to write. and after a long absence, things have only gotten worse. for months now, i have been unable to get anything done. i have been collecting tiny retainers and not following through. i have been blowing deadlines, missing court dates, and sinking into a financial abyss that scares even me.and the thing of it is that i seem to be completely apathetic about the whole thing. and to top the whole thing off, rb got into a head on, so he can't try the big thing, and it's going to cost me more and more and it's getting delayed and delayed... so the whole black cloud thing has some legs, huh?i know that i've asked this rhetorical question before, but what the flying-fuck is wrong with me? and then there is the whole marcia thing...but i'm getting sleepy now, and that's my m.o. and i really need to check into a flight deck. 10:33 am
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[July 02 2009] |
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i want piglet to live with me i think that it's time to have piglet live with me. she is making too much noise about hating her mom and the dynamic is spiraling out of control. here it is: piglet doesn't feel loved by her mother. so she feels like her friends don't like her either. she interprets nine-year-old-fickleness for ostracism. she eats and eats to fill herself up with what she is not getting from her mother.and i can't have that. erich has been reminding me that i've often said that i expected piglet to want to live with me sooner than most adolescent girls of divorced parents want to leave their mother, and that i would take her in a heartbeat if she asked. i guess that i didn't expect it so soon. and piglet hasn't asked. but i have to do it. erich made a statement yesterday that scared me. he said that sometimes kids will hate the other parent for not letting them live with them.i can understand that. a kid asks to live with daddy and daddy says no. the kid feels like s/he will be a burden to daddy's cool lifestyle, and resents him. i read what erich said as, you really need to save her. and i agree with him. so, whether i have the money or not, i have to do this. i made a date to meet 666 tomorrow to discuss it. she doesn't know why i want to talk to her and i have to figure out how to approach it. i expect some resistance, but i also expect that it won't last long. i don't really think that 666 likes being a mother. and i think i am going to have piglet tested for add. 8:23 am
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