Wont be updating here anymore.

Link to my new blog .

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I was surfing Friendster just a while ago and I clicked on my friend's profile. She was my good pal back in seconday school days. Lower secondary to be precised. We arent close anymore and not really in contact after so many years. I dont even have her MSN but if you consider having yr friends included in yr friendster is still a way of keeping in touch, then yea, we are very much connected via this big world wide web.

Its amazing how we can know how our long lost friend is getting along just by surfing her/his Friendster's profile. This particular friend of mine (lets just name her 'M') has pretty changed a big deal.More sweet and all grown up. But i guess thats perfectly normal. Because all women from the age of 8 to 88 have these vain hormones in them. If u dont believe, u must meet my Mom. =P

M is still as fair as ever to the extent I thought I have a Korean friend all long. But its not the change in apprearance or her hairstyle that shocked me. Im amazed that she actually has a boyfriend currently.

Dont get me wrong. Im not saying that she cant have a boyfriend. But the whole issue is who her partner is.Her boyfriend is actually someone from our secondary school. This guy is not really a friend of mine, more of a acquaintance.You know those typical hi-bye 'friends'.Love is indeed a strange thing. I have no idea when how long have they been together (Because Friendster doesnt require u to state so) but i definitely know its not back during school days. Wow, perhaps their class gatherings after graduation really sparked chemistry among the two. Maybe they have been admiring each other since school days? Perhaps the guy has been trying by all means to sit near with her in class and been voluneering to wash M's test tube after those Chemistry praticals? Ha, i wouldnt want to know all the details.

But aside from all the astonishment, i feel nothing but happy for both of them.Its really sweet to know that after years of friendships, it can actually blosom into love. Talk about the power of love.

I have a fair share of friends whose partners are secondary school friends but they only get together after graduation. I dont know how u guys feel from frankly speaking, i have to admit i cant picture myself getting hitched to a seconday school friend. U might wonder why and i have to clarify the point that there is absolutely no problem with all my guy friends. They are great bunch of pals whom i greatly enjoy hanging out with. But the problems lies with me.

I like mature man. (You can read: I like man who are are older than me) Alright, i shall not elaborate on further since this is not the crust of the whole entry. =)

Having said all these, I believe its high time for me to message her and ask for her MSN account. I believe the use of Frienster still has its cons when it comes to the element of human touch.

p/s: My friend just told me he woke up at 4am plus for a jog. Its amazing how people can be so disciplined. I can only wake up that early for my football matches.

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The feeling is very much punch-in-the-face-cut-my-throat annoying but life has to go on. No matter how much setback a person faces, the day will definitely pass and be over. A new day and new hope will arrive nonetheless.But to tell the truth, i cant deal with with the disappointment initally. Perhaps i didnt see it coming. I was not myself for the past week. I ate whenever and whatever i want. And aside from enjoying all the food that i didnt touch for a least a year, I haven been exercising as well.

My parents have gone thru so much that from the way they encouraged me, they dont see the whole incident as a setback at all. Yeah, maybe i have been making a big din out of it overall. But anyway, I really appreciate those who actually made a tremendous effort to cheer me up. Eating chocolates and ice cream is a sure way to liven one's mood. Well, needless to say, I have indulged far more than i shld have. I dont care. Because i need not work in a industry whereby weight and apprearance matters anymore.

In times of adversity, you get to see who your true friends are. I expected some to be more caring but they never are. And surprisingly, some whom i never thought of, went the extra mile to make me smile. Thanks, coz i really needed that.

But hey, im feeling much better. Its time for me to stop wallowing in self pity and move on with life. Though im going thru the toughest patch of my life right now, I believe things will always turn for the better no matter what.And like what everyone who consoled me said,' a better job is coming your way in due time.'

Well, it better is.

Im taking a break from all the job hunting currently. Afterall, I haven get back my final yr results yet. Come to think of it, i think its next week. Sigh, another thing to worry about. But somehow i cant be bothered anymore.Like what happened in the Japan Airlines incident, I gave my best and I have the potential and ability to be a cabin crew. But sad to say,the physical aspect of me does not allow me to do so. Theres nothing i can do and i have no doubt sometimes luck do play a part.I can truly understand now why footballers cry after they failed to lift the trophy, be it the World Cup finals or the EPL. Because they gave their 101% but the outcome wasnt what they expected.And to sidetrack a little, its funny why people think its so sissy for Man to cry during movies but its perfectly alright if they lose in a game.Irony isnt it? But anyway, the whole incident makes me realised that everything is fated. If God wants me to pass, I will pass. No point brooding over it.

The feeling of separation and death is unbearable but little do i realise the feeling of disappointment is just as bad. But its just a matter of time before i recover to my true old self. Having said all the crap, Im going to treat myself to another holiday. I need this getaway badly. Coz this sad Apper needs to rejuvenate and refresh herself.

Off to watch Arsenal Vs Man City. Tata.

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I failed my medical check up. Yes, i failed. Why did He let me pass all 3 rounds of interviews but im getting nothing in the end? The truth is so painful that im actually crying while penning my thoughts down. I went thru that far but i had to fall back that far too.

Perhaps God doesnt want me to become an air stewardess afterall. Im sad not because i cant be a trolley dolly. What upsets me is the fact that i went thru so much, only to realise that things are not meant to be right from the start.

I guess what i need most is time. Time to heal my sadness and to move on again. I want to thank my family and my friends. They never fail to be there, comforting and consoling me. My Mom has been very encouraging, telling me that the most impt thing is health and i can spend my own sweet time to find a job.

The World is never fair.

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Its Monday again. Its rather amusing why time flies when we are having fun but minutes seem like eternity when we are going thru hell. I dont know why im blogging when i know i shld be sleeping at this late hour. Im tired but i cant sleep. Perhaps too many things are on my mind right now.

Those who make any effort to read the papers would have read that the Supreme Court has ordered Ananda Travel to wind up their business. Which means all their assets will be liquidated and to pay the main creditors. And customers who are praying for a refund (and that is ME) will be lined up- last in the queque. I already did what i could and that is to file a case at the Small Claims Tribunal. But chances are like so low that i told myself i shouldnt spend time entertaining negative thoughts anymore. I should move on with my life. Sigh, experience is the best teacher and i couldnt agree more. Sometimes u need to face setbacks in order to grow into a stronger person.

Alright, my weekend was pretty good. Nothing beats enjoying good food. But as much as i was pinning high hopes on Arsenal this new season, i was greeted by disappointment on the opening match. What a unconvincing draw. Walcott played well but not enough for Arsenal to win. Anyway, even though Man Utd's jersey is so ugly and retro, i have to admit they played v well against Fulham. Congrats to em!

I've just completed another book over the weekend. The Sky is Crazy by Yvonne Lee.

The Sky is Crazy: Tales from a Trolley Dolly is a humorous collection of airplanes anecdotes that shows u a wild kaleidoscope of tales tawled from a crazy sky.

Yes, the author's style of writing is so witty that i completed the book within 24 hrs! Go get the book if u have the time and money.

I should go and get my sleep now. Lastly, to quote from the book,

''A woman without makeup is like food without salt.''

Agree?

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Met up with Peiyi for dessert at Wheelock Place yesterday.Meeting up with her was rather a last min thing i must say. I was down at Raffles place for my x ray and she was in town for job interview. She gave me a call and we decided to meet up after we each settled our stuff.

The mudpie at NYDC tasted heavenly. We talked about any and everything under the sun. Well, shes one whom i can trust without any reservations. We rattled on how our future seems so vague and unclear. And not forgetting our results thats releasing pretty soon. Sigh, like i said before. Everything is fated so we shall see how it goes.

Back to my medical check up. I almost freaked out when the radiologist asked me to go down for another X ray taken. The whole journey trip down to Raffles place was full of negative thoughts.

Gosh,is my sphine suffering from any major problem?

The friendly radiologist assured me that nothing is wrong. The doc wanted another side view of my back taken just to be sure that everything is ok. After looking at the X ray, she told me everything shld be ok and i could leave. Ha, i bet she must have seen the anxiety and fear on my face.

So im praying hard that everything is really gonna be alright .=(

I hate the pessimistic side of me. I can actually think of all the worst senarios that can happen and start to get paronoid. I dont know but do u guys experience the same thing? I guess for my case it seems so serious that sometimes Obba would get piss off over my behaviour. Haha. Sometimes i seriously wonder why Obba is always so stress free and happy. I want some of this 'optimistic' genes too!

I love the feeling of being so free. Shiok! So i have come up with a plan on what to do today!

• Help my mom to vaccum the house. Its time to do some housework! I dont know what happened to my mom but shes so into Karaoke these days!
• Workout. Its been some time since i last hit the threadmill. I always like to come up with lame excuses, like i deserve a break, im sick etc. This is no good, Apper. No pain,no gain!
• Remember to watch the repeat telecast of Healing Hearts 3 on Channel 55.
• Self study Japanese. Its never to late to learn something. But i have to admit i never fail to procastinate!

Have a good day!

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Hi peeps, I apologise for not updating my blog for so long. August has never fail to be a jinx month for me. Been feeling sick for the past 2 weeks but im better,except for a sorethroat thats still bugging me.

The NDP 2006 was amazing. Never have I felt so patriotic for once. Everyone was wearing red. And the red sea somehow reminds me of the Korean supporters during the World Cup. My first NDP parade was way back when Singapore was a mere 27 yrs old and after which, no more. No luck in getting the tickets. How long was that!

Personally I think the performance put up by the Soka Association was the best. And not forgetting the breathtaking fireworks. I enjoyed the performance but I don’t think the fun pack was really that fantastic. Just some normal junk food. Oh, I find that mini fan quite useful though. =)

I think i shall write a little more about my job hunting. Remember the interview that was held at the airport? Well, i got thru the 3 interviews and went for my medical check up yesterday. Im keeping my fingers crossed that my health will be given the green light. Sigh, i really hate the feeling of waiting. Its like so near yet so far!

To impress those 8 foreign interviewers arnt a easy task. I had absolutely no idea what were they looking for. The 3 interviews consisted mainly of self introduction, reading of a Chinese passage and a final group discussion.

But i believe God will provide the best for me. Even if things doesnt turn out the way i want, I'm still proud of myself. To be 1 of the 15 out of 200+ applicants is not easy but i did it! =)

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very funny,Peter. Haha!

p/s: I think today's interview is gone with the wind! =(

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Its been quite a while since i last did some decent blogging.Nothing interesting happened to me for the past week.

Oh, im going to catch Robbie William's concert this Nov.Sound interesting? Nah.

Im pretty much involved in job hunting these few days.

''Good luck for yr job shopping,'' thats what one of my friends said.

Gawd, i dont think this area of shopping can be that fun. Frankly speaking, i cant even remember how many resumes i have sent so far. Went for a few interviews and i've got another two this coming Sat and Friday.

Tml's interview at 9 and that means i have to wake up at 6?! 45mins of bath/breakfast/make up and another 1 hr journey to the East. I gonna psycho my dad to drive me to the MRT station.

Im craving for Apple Crumble once again. Perhaps i should settle my lunch at the airport's Swensen after my interview.

Dont u think 佘詩曼 is such a gorgeous babe?

She is my motivation!

And i've just mentioned i wanna go Swensens tml.=(

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わたしわ 日 本 語 に きょ味 が  あります。

がんばって ください！

Living to achieve my dream.

*Go,Go Fighting!*

スチュワデス!

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Finally uploaded my 台湾 photos. Reached Sg on Monday afternoon and was feeling extremely tired. Was up almost the whole night watching the WC finals and i had to leave to catch my flight right after the match. Yeah! I told you, my Italia will win! My bet slip was almost one month old and has been collecting dust. I am so happy that its not going to the dustbin afterall. Im kind of missing all those football action. Guess i have to wait till for the new season of EPL!=(

I never expect my graduation trip to be 台湾. But here i am back in Sg, after 10 days of good food,nice scenary and lotsa shopping. I love the night markets esp. The stuffiness and the crowd made it even more fun. Managed to catch Pirates of the Carribean 2 in 台中. Gawd, im in love with Johnny Depp. Hes forever so charismatic. But i dont really like the ending. I cant wait for part 3.

东方Billy was on the same flight with me again. The last time was back in 2004 on my Korea flight via KL. What a coincidence. He looked so haggard and tired. Read the papers that his brother fell to his death.

Pictures tell a thousand words. Hence i think i will write less and let the photos do all the talking. Taiwan is very fun but i think the Taiwanese are too into Japanese stuff. The girls all so into Japanese fashion. Its rather amusing why could they put on so many layers of clothing despite the hot-hot weather. Sometimes i wonder if i have stepped into the Land of the Rising Sun once again. 真的是太哈日了！

六福村。One of the most thrilling rides i have ever sat! =)

Tell me whats cute if this is not.

On the 91st floor of Taipei 101 Observatory.

Im in love with 阳明山. Beautiful.

去北投泡温泉！

Miramar Shopping Centre.

Inside the Ferris Wheel.

Our new friend, Sean. Fortuna Hostel.

p/s:I have uploaded the rest of the photos in slide.com which is at the side bar.Hope you guys like them.=)

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Hi people, im in Taipei right now. Even though the weather is unbearably hot at 36 degrees, this place is so much fun! I have been enjoying myself for the past few days.But having said that, with all the good food, i think i gain weight!=(

Will be back on Monday. Will be watching the World Cup final over here. And hey, remember to support Italia!

*Italia wins = i win money*

Opps, now you guys know why i support them right from the start. Haha!

Have a lovely weekend and will post my Taiwan photos when im back!

Till then, adios!

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One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.

Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.

Sometimes there were two sets of footprints.

Other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life

When I was suffering from anguish, sorrow, or defeat,

I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord, "You promised me, Lord,

That if I followed you, you would walk with me always.

But I noticed that during the most trying periods of my life

There have only been one set of prints in the sand.

Why, When I have needed you most, you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,

"The times when you have seen only one set of footprints

Is when I carried you."

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也许是注定的吧。逗了个大圈子， 我最后的旅游目的地竟然是台北。 这是我第一次到台湾， 所以心情当然是其待和兴奋啦！虽然不能到埃及固然有点失望， 但我相信机会以后还是会有的。

听说台湾和香港一样， 不就是买东西，吃东西吗? =) 我在04年去过了香港。 香港的夜景十分迷人，不亏是东方之珠。但在那短短的几天里，我发现香港人给我的印象不是很友善。也许他们的生活节奏特别快，脾气变坏也是难免的。

我比较喜欢背包旅行，所以这次的台湾之旅也当然是free and easy.过去的几个星期收取了一些有关台北的资料，希望到了那儿会有帮助。在网上看到在台中有一个什么九族文化村。看起来十分的好玩。如果时间允许的话，到想真的去那走一走。

昨晚有看意大利对垒奥洲吗? 我认为根本不应该有法球。奥洲球迷一定是气死了！不过support 意大利的我，当然是开兴还来不极啦！况且又是我的最爱Totti 进的球！

意大利万岁！希望对垒ukraine 的时后会有更好的表现。

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I met up with Karen for Starbucks at Paragon yesterday. It was really nice catching up with her because we haven seen each other since Febuary. I like the feeling where i need not worry about anything. Pretty carefree i would say. No work, no stress and no shit. We talked about everything and anything under the sun. Somehow i missed the times when we would just travel down from sch to taka just to buy our Tako Pachi. And not forgetting of all the stupid arguments we had back then. We were so childish yea? Time flies and all of us have grown up. And you are about to embark on a new working journey! Im so excited for you.=)

I saw Robin. Both of u had eye contact but the funny thing was we didnt acknowledge each other. You see, its almost a year since i last saw him and i wasnt really sure hes really the Robin I know. I bet he must be thinking the same way like i did. Its gonna be pretty embarrassing if you smile at the wrong person. Well, and on my way home, I saw Mong Leng at the station and Alicia at Causeway Point. Alicia is my childhood friend cum old neighbour and i miss her so much! Hope to meet up with her for dinner real soon.

Pearl Harbour, Hawaii. 1999.

I really miss my secondary school days.

p/s1: With those glasses, sure do i look like a nerd!

p/s2: My fav Azzurri is thru to the last 16.Yahoo! And that means the next match is Armani vs The Billabong/Quilksilver!

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My game is fair play.

Support Italy against Czech Republic tml! =)

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